Have you read this little children's book?
It's been in print for a very long time
so chances are you are familiar with it.
I happened across the book again recently
and was vividly reminded
of the first time I saw it.
Our youngest son was in college
and Mister and I had gone to visit him one weekend.
During the visit we went through a local mall
to pick up some college things for him.
(College kids are always needy, aren't they?!)
One of our stops was the bookstore at the mall.
In the bookstore there was a display
featuring the "Love You Forever" book.
Son says, "Oh Mom, have you seen this book?"
I picked up the book and began to quickly
read through it.
Then I began to CRY!
Not just a little,
a LOT,
the crying one does when they
can't catch their breath.
The ugly-screw-up-your-face
cry.
People began to look.
We exited the store.
Son and Mister were astounded
as I am one that N-E-V-E-R
cries. (well, rarely, and only when
I'm alone, with the door shut)
Son is flustered and apologetic
and Mister is shaking his head
and confused.
I vowed to N-E-V-E-R read this
book again.
It is more than I can handle.
I.Am.Weak.
And.I.Am.Vulnerable.
When.I.Read.Those.Words.
*Fast-Forward with me to
6 weeks later*
It was Mother's Day.
I was dressed in my new dress
and thrilled that all our children
were coming in from college to
attend church with us on this
special day.
The BIG church was packed,
pew to pew, aisle to aisle.
We sang. We prayed.
and THEN
the Children's Minsiter made
a few comments about this special
day, "Mother's Day".
And for this special occasion
she had chosen to read a story,
"Love You Forever".
I looked to the right of me.
I looked to the left of me.
There was no way of exiting
the crowded pew quickly.
I mentally recited the alphabet;
I went to the "happy place"
in my mind,
but there was no ignoring
those words.
I made an awful scene.
There was lots of noisey crying,
snot-slinging, and hic-upped sobs.
I simply couldn't quit crying
I lumbered across the laps
of the people seated on our pew
as I made my way to the aisle
and out the back door.
This was not my finest moment.
I still don't understand
why this book upsets me so.
Perhaps it has something to
do with the passing of time
and little boys growing
into grown men.
Happy Birthday to our
baby boy, Tate!
I wish we could be with you today.
~Mom