Today I'm sorting my thoughts.
Consider yourself warned.
It will probably be a bumpy ride,
so buckle up.
"I hate to admit some of these things,
but I'm going to."
That said, from now till the first of the year is my
least favorite time. I know how that sounds.
It sounds like Bah-Humbug,
but that's not really the case. It's just that this
time of the year is such a jumble to me.
I LOVE getting together with our family!
I don't like that we have to drive to Okla
to do this.
Mister AND Princess have a Nov. 30th b-day.
The good: I love celebrating them!
I don't like the fact that we no sooner
get home from Thanksgiving and I
immediately must get into party mode.
It's really a time & energy crunch
to do all the prepping & baking
so close to Thanksgiving,
though this is getting easier as
Princess gets older. Still, it's hard
to do their birthdays like I want
because I'm rushed.
it's time to put away the Thanksgiving
decor and begin the process of getting
out all the Christmas decorations
and putting the tree up, yada, yada, yada.
Shame on me, but I don't enjoy putting
up and/or taking down "Christmas"
in my house.
Then there's another 6 hr drive to and from
Oklahoma the week before Christmas.
The big payoff is getting to see my
family again, though I absolutely hate the drive.
Then it's home for Christmas
and time to begin the process of picking up
and putting all the Christmas decor away.
It's the busy-ness that I don't enjoy.
this year, but that would mean not
using all the lovely ornaments I've collected
through the years. Don't know how I'd feel
about that. I love these ornaments as they
are the ones my children have made and I
am sentimentally attached to them. And
deep down this sort of means that I admit
that we are getting older and "times they
are a changing". Silly, huh?!
As I read over this I feel it sounds petty.
Sometimes honesty is petty.
I think I mostly feel "crowded".
There are seemingly too many occasions
crunched together too closely.
This is how I wish I could do Christmas:
I want to sit with my Mom (she's 82)
and not be hurried.
I want to bake Christmas cookies
and sip Red hot Cider
with Mister and Princess.
I want to hug my Granddolls and really
get to talk with them and share their
joy of the season. I want to meet my
son's new girlfriend and see how
they interact with each other.
I want to watch old home movies.
I want to put on Christmas music
and sip wine as I wrap gifts.
I want to sit with my oldest daughter and
have some one-on-one time before it's midnight
and we're too exhausted to enjoy
each other's company.
I want to find some sort of gift
that Mister would really enjoy.
I want to see a funny Christmas movie
in the theater. I want to spend some
stress-free time with my sister and her family.
I want my youngest son to
be with all the family and really
feel loved and valued. I want to watch
"Merry Christmas Charlie Brown".
I want to really celebrate Jesus birthday
and "feel" the joy of the season.
Good, bad or whatever,
this is what's on my mind today.