This is how I feel
and I know you can barely contain yourself waiting for me to reveal my innermost thoughts. This IS your lucky day 'cause I'm gonna throw it out into blogland, simple and raw.
I feel sad.
I feel sad because my son and DIL (remember the wedding photos from June?) are packing up to leave Okla and heading to Washington state. No longer will I be able to visit easily and I'm feeling very sad about the entire situation. Our close knit family is splintered; we live scattered across the states. I live in Louisiana, and I now have a daughter in Okla, a son in Georgia, and in a couple of weeks I'll have a son in Washington. Who knows where Princess will live when she is "out of the nest". All my older chicks have flown and with it go my Norman Rockwell dreams of holidays together, birthdays together, and grandchildren at my knee. Those things are not gonna happen very often. I will have to find new dreams and that is not always an easy thing to do. Yes, I know I'm whining, but old dreams die hard. Reasonable or not, this is how I feel.
This is what I know.
I know that my children's lives cannot be about "me", though I had hoped to be involved in their life at least to a small degree. I know that change happens, whether we like it or not. I know that my son and DIL are excited and happy about the move, and I comfort myself with this thought. I know that it is going to take me a while to emotionally adjust. When the oil & gas boom fizzled in Okla and we saw that a move was necessary for Mister's job, we were willing to move only as far as a day's drive away from our adult children. That limited the places we could relocate. Louisiana was a suitable move for us, as it is a 6 hour drive to Tulsa and a 12 hr drive to Georgia. Washington is a 36 hr drive from our town. That fact is a heart-breaker for me. There is just something about knowing if you wanted or needed to reach your family that it would be doable in a reasonable amount of time. That will no longer be the case. I am not a smothering, helicopter parent - I PROMISE. I think all my "kids" would vouch for me on this one, but I am about family, right down to my core.
Friday, August 10, 2012
This is how I feel
Posted by Sweet Tea at 7:01 AM